Fanatical Fanatics

Koreans.

Why are people so obsessed with Koreans nowadays? Colourful, weird dressed and highly insecure people. One of my friend who was really obsessed, and I mean as obsessed as can be, told me that Koreans/Korean pop stars are all plastered by plastic surgery. The eyes, the lips, the cheeks, the nose, the everything on the face.

I was just looking at Channel [V] and they were interviewing the Korean pop stars and I told my dad "D look, you see their faces, got people look liddat wan meh? The face all like super bengkak and completely no wrinkles." Then my dad went "Are they insecure?" then I went "No, stupid" then he was like "or is it insecure?=)" then again I said "stupid".

Okay, I know that was lame, but it was funny at that moment. It was like "in the moment" funny kinda thing. Haha.

Silly dad. Sometimes he can get really funny, and sometimes really just speechless.

No explanations

The missing piece

Cheer up. There is nothing to regret. Trust me=). The only thing you'll regret is saying what you have said.=)

Words

Live today like there is no tomorrow, so if you have anything to say to someone, say it today. You wont know what will happen tomorrow. What if your chance of saying it tomorrow never comes? Take a deep breathe, keep your thoughts together, and everything will take its place:) If your intentions are good, everyone will appreciate it in the end.

Enjoyments

Everyone enjoys food. No one doesn't like food. Yes, there are people who doesn't like some food, but there are some food in particular that they like or love. Food brings people together. A meal can bring about friendships or even relationships. Food also can bring about conversations, happy times, sad times, or even times that are just times. Haha.

When candles are lid and songs played slowly, when table is set for two and fancy food is served, food then brings out relationships.

When playing a game and tummy grumbeling, when junk food is brought and packets of food are open, food then brings out freindship.

Laughters

Read the unreadable
Understand the understandable
Think the unthinkable
And you wont feel sad

Forgive the unforgivable
Realise the unrealisable
Say the unsayable
And you'll smile forever

Just Do It

I'm so ok already:). Nothing beats a 'just recovering' mood.

Positive Positive Positive

Selfless Selfless Selfless

Let it go but never forget

Thanks

That was what I needed.

The Man That Can't Be Move

'cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving

Taking the Steps

Life is about taking the necessary risk. Its about taking risk and not unnecessary risk. We must know when to draw the line that differentiates the necessary risk and the unnecessary risk. To succeed, we need to take risk.

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Mothers Day


We had a mothers day lunch in Mid Valley. We planned to go to Kim Garry's place to eat but reach there to find out that it was completely packed. Instead we had a wonderful time in Chilies. My family is great. I always think to myself, "Why am I so lucky to have a family like this?"

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Nowadays, questions about life is always puzzling me. I had a good talk about life with my dad today and he showed me a book he wrote about life. Why are these questions popping up in my head.

You Are You

What is love?

Is love to let go, or is love to hold on?

Who defines love for you?

Most of the time, there's two ways to life. One is to never give up no matter how hard the journey is, and the other is to know when to stop pushing things too far. Life can be like a game of 'tug of war'. What ever happens, do not let go of the rope, because you have to keep fighting to win it. You use all your strength to get it on your side and the rope slowly comes to you. Its a never giving up situation. Sometimes you may fall, other times you may be stong enough to hold it and pull it continuously, but you always get back up on your feet to try harder because you know that if you let it go just for a second, it goes away. Your opponent will have it even though you had it to your side before. Thats how life works sometimes. You must never give up, even if it gets tough. Life works in a funny way. It will reward you in ways you least expect it. On the other hand, there is another way to approach life. This is the total opposite from never giving up. Its called "know when to stop pushing because pushing too much will lead to negative outcomes". You must learn to stop pushing your limits when they say "no". If you continue, then things might get out of hand. When you stop pushing, life can reward you such that you will get what you want in the end because you were being patient.

But the only question left, how would you know which to choose when it comes to that situation? What if you never give up, but that situation requires you to stop pushing. Or even when you stop pushing, you lose out because that situation requires you to never give up. Either way you lose in the end. How would you know when to not push or when to not give up? That is why life is unfair. Even when you tried so hard, you try and you try, but you miss out, what then? To me, I try not to give up. At least in the end, you know you tried your best, but your best may not be what was required. Maybe you were not meant to get that. Maybe you were better of not having that.

I believe that we shape our own future. Others may think its faith. But what is faith exactly? If you tried once and you give up, is that called faith? "Its faith lah. Faith made me stop wan. So I stop lo". Is that how faith is categorized? Or is it when you try and try for several times and you still don't get it. Is that faith?

Every inch you take is every word you write in your book of life. You are prepared with a pen and a book but its up to you to fill it with excitement or just plain boringness. In my book, joy is explained as creating laughters with friends and getting laughter back. Joy is also termed as having the right companies and being comfortable with people you care most about. Joy is also labeled as spending time, sharing and even being there for that particular person.

A second, a minute, an hour, a day, a week, a month nearer.

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Word to self: Never complain even when time gets rough. Everyone gets to choose where to go.

What Now?

I really need help.

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Just one question: Why?

It Does Change

Yesterday was quite a good day. It was so surprising that we could beat a pro(Z)'s team. It was so unexpected but teamwork does make a difference. The 1st match we lost badly. I think it was because the didn't really have the time to fully warm up. Even though the team we were up against was so out of our league, but if we had completely warm up, we wouldn't suck so badly during that match..haha. The 1st match against VU and the second match was against ACCA(Z's team). That game was intense, but I couldn't ask for more from my team cause they did extremely well. That was the only time I saw Shaun so focused and so serious in a game. He was looking intensely on the table, eying the ball where ever it goes with a "Don't disturb me!!" look. Shaun was the striker whereas Min Chun was the defender. "Min Chun always looks the same. No matter whether he is serious or not", Siew Choon quoted. I laughed on the spot and got scolded by friends cause I was distracting the other guys. They beat Z's men double team, with scores 1-5, 5-3, 5-4 (best of two). Later Gay and I played for the mix double. Gay and I played against Z and one of his girl members. The adrenaline rush filled me as I was quite tensed too. Gay was really good or should I say awesome. She manage to block most of Z's shots and score at the same time. I played my best. Gay should have all the credits cause I feel she did really good. Siew Choon was good as well. He is the only one who can "snake" among all of us. So, that makes up the best team I know=).

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Somethings you keep as your guidance does make a difference. I just experienced one today. Although there are times we have to feel sad, but overall, we should just let the sadness go to make way for joy to come in. Unexpected things will happen, and that's what makes up life. If everything in life is like reading a book about how you go though life, then where does surprises, excitement, anxiousness gonna come in?

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Someone told me to be more serious as I am always known to be very playful, and I do believe it is time to change. Even though its considered late, but having to realise it is better than having not to.

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Word to self: Know when to stop and know when to go.

Who Would Think

Damn cacat la today, but atleast I kept on my word on not playing foosball today..haha. After the competition tomorrow, I'm surely gonna stop playing foosball and study more. Because I studied today, made full use of my spare time studying for my econs test, the test seems ok.

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Seems like I am super addicted to the Bruno Mars song "Nothing on you". When you made a promise to yourself, things seems to come true. I made a promise to always be positive now. Everything happens for a reason. Even if the reasons are not to your expectations, but it may be good for you in the end. Since the day I made that promise, things have been positive to me. Even when I was down, I got back up within a few seconds. Its great to be positive.

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If we are able to control our temptations towards something, then we have control of our present and our futures. If we can control ourself from sleeping in a class even though we are tired, it is called "Having control of our life". Taking the first step towards something is much easier then continuing the journey of that same thing, but taking the first step is much better then not doing anything

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Word to self: Your always in my mind

Guess

Having a good friend back is always nice. A friend who is there when needed is a true friend. I always appreciated the company of them. Its a gift, a true gift.

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I think I'm getting use to this blog now..haha. Never thought I'd say that.

Where Do I start?

I passed my driving today. It was good, but that Malay lady examiner was a real pain in the ass. She was a complete crazy woman. Today at the driving place, there were a lot of crazy things that happen with the JPJ. First of, they are a complete bribers, money sucking people who cant do their jobs properly. They were given the responsibility to help guide us and at least be a little kinder but in the end, they did the complete opposite.

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After passing the driving test, I had the feeling of going to college. I was full of happiness and joy. But when I just left home, my dad's car tire got punctured. It took us only 15 mins to get the car on the road again. After changing the tire, my dad's mood became bad and that pulled my day down a little. I went to college and one of the first person I saw was her. She actually looked really good even though her hair was long and she looked a little tired but she still looked great. But things got bad when I heard her response to what I have asked but I had already prepared for the worse. I still did pass her the thing I said I would pass cause now, I wanna be a person of my word. Things were only sad for a few moments but joy and laughter slowly made their way into me. I guess being ready for something does make a whole lot of difference.

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She is one of the most outstanding girl I have ever seen and met. I've always admire her because of what she can accomplish and what she is capable of doing. I guess she really did thought a lot of things through to be doing what she did to me. Her bravery is something I don't think I have it in me. She did something that I don't think i could do, something which took a lot of guts, something that requires a lot of thinking, something a real girl can do. I hope when she does find another guy, he will turn out to be twice the man I am and comforts her well. Someone who she can count on in the future. I think i will have to thank her properly tomorrow. Friends are always meant to be kept=).

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Word to self: Always be positive and never regret.

Believes

In life, we must not find ways to regret what we have done. Regretting what has been done is living in the past. We do learn from our mistakes but in the end, we should not look at it as regret but a "teaching" that someone has made for us to learn.

Surprise?

It seems like things are getting better. The holidays weren't too bad. Went to Kuantan with my family, which turned out to be quite a blast. Though out the trip, I got to do some thinking. But i don't have to write it down here cause the message has already conveyed.

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I keep telling myself "Have a better sense of direction like dad has" because dad did surprise me again by his sense of direction. If mine is 5 in a scale of 10, then my dad is like 9. Not only that, now I do appreciate more that my dad is actually, and I mean actually super smart. The trip after Kuantan made me do a lot of thinking. Not just thinking about her, but life. It got me thinking that positive things do come to positive people. I asked my dad the other day "What values do you use as your guide di? Phrase it in one sentence". Then he was like "There are a lot of values I have, like, love others the way you love yourself or even You are what you think you are". It took me almost 15 years to realise that what he says are actually what values I have been looking for to life. There are certain things that I disagree with him and there are definitely a lot of things I agree on with him.

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Friday was a nice day. I got to see her after a long while. Confessed what I had to face to face and it was a big relief on my side. That was also the day that I found out how much she loves God(she is Christian). Sometimes you just envy these people because they are devoted to something or to someone. I may not have a religion but from what I know, she looks to God not just for help but also as an idolize person. That was the day that I looked at her and there was this feeling that went all over me, the feeling of "she inspired me in so many ways". Sometimes when you are filled with these feelings, you just want to hug that person because they mean a lot to you.