Why do I find reading her blog recently to be more and more heartbreaking? Is it because the way she's describing me is like giving a tight slap across my face? Why does she have to describe me in a way that its so hurting? Things doesn't always look as it seems. The eye can sometimes misguide you into things you think its not true but the eyes shows it that way. The mind is thinking the right things, its just that the eyes only sees what it wants to see, which can bring to a lot of misunderstanding.
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Being positive is one thing. To get over something or to "move on" takes both parties to be on the positive side, not just one being positive and then the other being negative dragging the positive one down. But to me, I don't just wanna move on from something I felt was kinda good, something which brought me a lot of laughter back then, a comforting zone, something which I gave my heart to. I just wanna overcome this stage, not to move on, but to get pass this drowning feelings and just go back to the time when we use to have most fun from, or even move forward to the future thinking on the positive side and saying "It will tun out to be great"
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We should just ease our minds. The future can always change. It can even surprise us when we least suspect it. Don't just think it one way. There are many ways to reaching your goal. Must you take the least possibilities?
Monday, April 26, 2010
Friday, April 23, 2010
Many shits today
Why does all this weird things happen to me? What did i possibly do wrong to have this many shits in one day?
1. The night before, we didn't really talk. She had some stuff to figure out
2. My plan to surprise her failed. Cause of the stupid road test which took effing long
3. I failed my on the road test
4. i didnt get to see her in the end
5. She said i annoyed her
6. I told her i don't mind if she doesn't wanna get back with me
So in the end, it turned out to be one of my worst days ever. To be honest, I still like her and it does kill me inside that when i told her "its okay, you deserve better. I respect your choice", I actually do want her back. But she doesnt seem to be happy with me cause I annoyed her, but I mean, once? a few times?, surely less than 3. But that is enough to say that things couldn't work out?. I mean no one is perfect. I do know I have flaws. But couldn't you give me more than one chance? Am I not allowed to make any mistakes? I mean, don't tell me one mistake is enough to change one's mind?
Even what ever has been done, I still wan you back. I wanna reset everything that has happen and just pretend we are complete strangers. And I would like to meet you again for the first time
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The most patient and tolerant person will get what they want in the end. It maybe faith or you can say karma. Cause what goes around comes around=)
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It turned out to be a funny day in the end too. Haha. You know you have cycled too far when
1. You pass not only one, but two parties filled with teenagers and they look at you thinking "why on earth is that guy wearing a helmet"
2. You pass your sister's friend who so happens went to the PD trip with you and now thinking "Dude, seriously the helmet?"
Haha. It was a stupid and really crazy day. But one thing good about it was, me and her, have gone back on course again. I wonder how long till we get together=). Haha. The future seems a bit blur now. But I guess, its gonna be a hell lot of surprises coming=)
1. The night before, we didn't really talk. She had some stuff to figure out
2. My plan to surprise her failed. Cause of the stupid road test which took effing long
3. I failed my on the road test
4. i didnt get to see her in the end
5. She said i annoyed her
6. I told her i don't mind if she doesn't wanna get back with me
So in the end, it turned out to be one of my worst days ever. To be honest, I still like her and it does kill me inside that when i told her "its okay, you deserve better. I respect your choice", I actually do want her back. But she doesnt seem to be happy with me cause I annoyed her, but I mean, once? a few times?, surely less than 3. But that is enough to say that things couldn't work out?. I mean no one is perfect. I do know I have flaws. But couldn't you give me more than one chance? Am I not allowed to make any mistakes? I mean, don't tell me one mistake is enough to change one's mind?
Even what ever has been done, I still wan you back. I wanna reset everything that has happen and just pretend we are complete strangers. And I would like to meet you again for the first time
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The most patient and tolerant person will get what they want in the end. It maybe faith or you can say karma. Cause what goes around comes around=)
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It turned out to be a funny day in the end too. Haha. You know you have cycled too far when
1. You pass not only one, but two parties filled with teenagers and they look at you thinking "why on earth is that guy wearing a helmet"
2. You pass your sister's friend who so happens went to the PD trip with you and now thinking "Dude, seriously the helmet?"
Haha. It was a stupid and really crazy day. But one thing good about it was, me and her, have gone back on course again. I wonder how long till we get together=). Haha. The future seems a bit blur now. But I guess, its gonna be a hell lot of surprises coming=)
Thursday, April 22, 2010
How should i feel?
The funniest thing is that, after reading, things become worst. Now I have no idea how to react and what to do. Things seem a lot different nowadays. Maybe I did something wrong, most likely, but is rejecting me and neglecting me is the right thing? Is that how we have to overcome somethings? I appreciate things being spoken out rather then keeping it in cause I know it will bring a significant change. I am good in hiding emotions. What you see may not be what it is.
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