It seems like things are getting better. The holidays weren't too bad. Went to Kuantan with my family, which turned out to be quite a blast. Though out the trip, I got to do some thinking. But i don't have to write it down here cause the message has already conveyed.
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I keep telling myself "Have a better sense of direction like dad has" because dad did surprise me again by his sense of direction. If mine is 5 in a scale of 10, then my dad is like 9. Not only that, now I do appreciate more that my dad is actually, and I mean actually super smart. The trip after Kuantan made me do a lot of thinking. Not just thinking about her, but life. It got me thinking that positive things do come to positive people. I asked my dad the other day "What values do you use as your guide di? Phrase it in one sentence". Then he was like "There are a lot of values I have, like, love others the way you love yourself or even You are what you think you are". It took me almost 15 years to realise that what he says are actually what values I have been looking for to life. There are certain things that I disagree with him and there are definitely a lot of things I agree on with him.
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Friday was a nice day. I got to see her after a long while. Confessed what I had to face to face and it was a big relief on my side. That was also the day that I found out how much she loves God(she is Christian). Sometimes you just envy these people because they are devoted to something or to someone. I may not have a religion but from what I know, she looks to God not just for help but also as an idolize person. That was the day that I looked at her and there was this feeling that went all over me, the feeling of "she inspired me in so many ways". Sometimes when you are filled with these feelings, you just want to hug that person because they mean a lot to you.
